Butterbean stew recipe

Hello everyone,
I haven’t posted a recipe or anything for quite a long time. I asked a few people on Instagram if they would like me to start posting recipes again and I got such positive feedback that people would love to see recipes. I dip in and out of blogging ever such a lot but I really enjoy it. I enjoy having the space to share anything my heart desires. So, as with all of my other recipes I have shared I thought I would post them on this blog. This particular one I am going to share today was actually requested and I didn’t really know what you would want me to share so I thought I would kick off with this one.

Butterbean stew:

Butterbean stew

Ingredients:
400g can chopped tomatoes
1 can of butterbeans in water, drained and rinsed
1 small onion, diced
1 carrot, diced
1 red pepper, chopped
1 courgette, chopped
1tsp each of cumin, coriander and garam masala

What to do:
1. Heat a little oil in a saucepan and add in the onion, carrot, pepper and courgette and cook for five minutes
2. Add the butterbeans, chopped tomatoes, cumin, coriander and garam masala and simmer for 15 minutes. You may need to simmer for longer depending on how crunchy or soft you like your vegetables to be
3. Serve with whatever you would like and most importantly enjoy! 🙂

The reality of eating disorder recovery

Hello flowers,

I am ever so sorry for my recent absence. I realise that I haven’t posted in a little while and before that I only posted recipes! I guess I will tell you a little bit about my past week. Things have been up and down. Mainly down unfortunately but it is imperative that I keep that positive mindset going. Food has been the best it has for years and years. I cook for my family twice a week, we have roast dinners every Sunday, I bake and eat my baking, I eat pizza, pudding every single day of ice cream or a sponge pudding and I have lunch out with my mum at least once every two weeks. These are things I would NEVER have dreamed of doing only five months ago. Five months ago I was in hospital and I woke up every day feeling dread, hatred and self loathing.

This is where the downside comes in. I see many many people who go through recovery and they eat and suddenly their whole life falls into place. They have a job, friends, they go out have generally have FUN. I always wanted to be that person, I always wanted to recover just like that. I think the reality is what I described above is very rare. The more common type of recovery is that one eats and engages in anorexia recovery 100% (me) but then then their mood plummets, they feel more depressed than ever, they are tired, they don’t want to do anything like go shopping, horse riding or the things we love. We think we hang on a second,we were told me all of these professionals and all of our loved ones that if we eat then things will get better. Our mood will increase, we will have energy etc etc.

This is NOT (always) the case. I know exactly what has happened with me and I wanted to tell you all because I don’t have a solution to this problem but it helps knowing what the problem is. Because when you are just sitting there with the worst thoughts ever, it is so frustrating because you don’t know WHY. And I hope that this will help some of you understand a little bit more. When we starve our bodies of the most important source that it needs to function, generally everything goes to pot. We feel physically unwell as well as mentally unwell. Our mood decreases but also something quite interesting happens to our mood. Our brains can’t function properly and when you are eating so little this is even more the case. Your body starts to shut down and when you have NO energy supplies, the body desperately tries to get energy from your muscles to keep your body working.

This is why when our body and brain is malnourished then if a situation happens, it will go over the top of you. You might care about it but you don’t have the time and energy to think about it. You don’t have the energy to make up a thought process of I am feeling happy/angry/sad because… So because of this when you do start eating again your brain CAN function properly. You have thoughts and feelings that are so loud you can’t switch them off. The fact is your thoughts never went, they were always the same but malnourishment caused them to be buried. And this brings me around into a full circle of why you developed anorexia in the first place. Maybe (like me) you had extremely low mood to begin with and of course the anorexia (or other eating disorder) hid that away because you are so consumed on food that you can’t think about anything else. And if this is the case then you know that your low mood that you are experiencing now, it’s just the same as before. It may feel like your mood has gotten a lot worse than when you were buried in anorexia but the truth it is no no worse than before you developed anorexia.

You have come around full circle. Anorexia never got rid of your low mood, anorexia never got rid of the situation as to why you became ill in the first place. It covered everything up so you wouldn’t have to think about it and now here you are faced with the problem again. Like I said above, I do not have a solution to this problem. It is difficult for me to talk about why I became ill in the first place. I don’t 100% know why actually. But the thing I want to improve now that my brain is functioning well is that I want to practice self love. I want to banish all of the awful thoughts I have about myself. I don’t like talking about me being bullied at school, it was an extremely difficult time for me. I now have the thoughts every single day that everyone hates me. Everyone hates me and they would be better of without me. THIS is what anorexia covered up and THIS is why I feel low. Anorexia didn’t just cover that up. It covered up way more than that but the point is I know what I need to improve on. I need to learn to love myself and I think that your first step could be learning to love yourself as well. You don’t have to know why you got poorly. You just have to know the catalyst. (low mood, low self worth etc.)

I really do hope that this helps a few of you. This is where I am at right now and it’s painful so painful but I know if I went back to anorexia I would have no chance of a peaceful life. I would be forever battling with my mind. It is just baby steps like it has been my whole recovery, one foot in front of the other.

Tomato baked eggs

Hello,

I promised yesterday on instagram that I would post this delicious recipe of tomato baked eggs. I made this for the very first time on Wednesday and it was so delicious and extremely easy. I think anyone could make it because it is that easy. Here is what it looks like and what to do:

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Tomato baked eggs

Ingredients:

  • 1 large potato washed and diced
  • oil to fry
  • 1 crushed garlic clove
  • 1/4 red pepper
  • 1tsp dried chives
  • 1/2tsp paprika
  • 1/2 of a 400g can chopped tomatoes
  • 9 green olives
  • 2 eggs

What to do:

  1. Add the potato to a pan of boiling water and simmer for 10 minutes
  2. While the potato is boiling, heat the oil in a frying pan. Once heated add the garlic and pepper and cook for three minutes
  3. Add the chives paprika, chopped tomatoes and olives to the pan and cook for 3 minutes
  4. When the potato is done drain it then mix in well with the tomato sauce
  5. grease a small/medium pan with oil/spray/spread and then add in the tomato and potato mixture
  6. Make two dips in the mixture and then crack in the eggs into each one
  7. Bake for 15 minutes with an oven temperature of 180 fan oven or 200 normal

Enjoy 🙂

Apricot and walnut sandwich bars (Mary Berry recipe)

Hello,

Some of you might know that I absolutely love baking. It is one of my favourite things to do but unfortunately anorexia has taken it away from me as my mum was getting a bit frustrated when I used to bake all of the time but I wouldn’t eat any myself. I remember when I was in hospital, every Friday was baking day and I would make chocolate brownies and biscuits etc and I would give them to my family and all of the other patients and staff. It was like no one expected me to eat any of what I had created. None of the staff said anything so I just kept baking and giving it all away. But then when I came home I WANT to eat my baked goods so I stopped baking from fear of having to eat it because I have made a pact with myself if I bake then I MUST eat it. And then at the weekend I hadn’t baked in months so I thought it was the perfect opportunity to bake something and eat it. I made these apricot and walnut bars from Mary Berry and they are so delicious. They felt wasier for me because they have oats and wholemeal flour and walnuts in but they still have their fair share of ingredients which my eating disorder would make me cry and run from. So I thought I would share this recipe with you. And of course it is Mary Berry so it has GOT to be good right? 😉

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Apricot and walnut sandwich bars

Ingredients:

  • 50g rolled oats
  • 50g light muscovado sugar
  • 40g chopped walnuts
  • 200g wholemeal self raising flour OR plain wholemeal flour with 2tsp baking powder
  • 175g butter, melted
  • 175g dried apricots, chopped into small pieces
  • 50ml water
  • 2tbsp caster sugar
  • grated rind of 1 lemon

What to do:

  1. Pre heat your oven to 130 degrees (fan) or 150 degrees and then grease and line a 18cm square tin with baking parchment. Begin by making the apricot filling. Place the apricots, water, sugar and lemon rind into a small saucepan. cover and simmer gently until all of the liquid has evaporated. Remove from the heat and allow to cool while you prepare the oat mixture.
  2. Mix together the oats, flour, sugar and walnuts in a bowl. Pour in the melted butter and mix well.
  3. Press half of the oat mixture into the tin and press down evenly. Spread the apricot mixture evenly on top and then top with the rest of the oat mixture evenly.
  4. Bake in the oven for around 45 minutes. I got nine squares out of my mixture and when still hot cut gently through the mixture to score out nine squares and then leave to go completely cold before completely cutting the bars and lifting them out of the tin.

Enjoy 🙂

Sweet potato tagine

Hello, I come bearing a recipe 🙂

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Sweet potato tagine with couscous

Ingredients:

  • Oil/Spray oil to fry
  • 1 chopped onion
  • 2 crushed garlic cloves
  • 2tsp ground coriander
  • 2tsp cumin
  • 2tsp paprika
  • 1 small aubergine cut into cubes
  • 2 small sweet potatoes peeled and cut into cubes
  • 400g can chopped tomatoes
  • 1 cup water
  • 1 small handful raisins
  • 1 small can chickpeas
  • 1 courgette cut into chunks
  • 1tbsp tomato puree

What to do:

  1. Heat the oil in a large saucepan then add the onion and garlic. Fry for around 10 minutes
  2. Add the coriander, cumin and paprika and fry for 30 seconds
  3. Add the aubergine and sweet potato, stirring for 1 minute
  4. Add the tin of tomatoes, water, raisins and chickpeas. Bring to the boil then simmer for ten minutes covering the pan with a lid
  5. Add the courgette and tomato puree then simmer again for 5 minutes
  6. Tagine goes best with couscous but I guess you could have it with anything you like. Couscous is so easy to make but just in case you didn’t know… Put 50+grams in a bowl and then pour in boiling water until the couscous is just covered. Cover with a plate and leave for five minutes

Enjoy 🙂

Basic baked oats recipe

Hello everyone,

So, I tried baked oats for the very first time this morning and it was incredible. It came out all crispy on the top and soft and gooey in the middle and I shall definitely be making these again and experimenting with different flavour combinations. I posted a picture of my baked oats on instagram this morning and I got a lot of comments for the recipe so for those of you that read my blog here is the basic recipe for my baked oats. I will also be trying out more flavour combinations and when I do I will put up another post for different recipes. But I thought I would just share with you the base recipe today and then you can experiment yourself with any flavour combinations and toppings you like.

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Baked oats basic recipe:

Ingredients:

  • 50g oats
  • 150ml milk of your choosing
  • 1tsp baking powder
  • 1/2tsp honey/agave nectar/golden syrup etc
  • 1/2 a mashed banana

What to do:

  1. Heat the oven to 180 fan oven or 200 degrees normal. Combine the oats and milk in a bowl
  2. Add the mashed banana, sweetner of your choice (I used agave) and baking powder and mix until combined
  3. Spray an oven proof dish with fry light or use a little oil so it doesnt stick. (I actually forgot to do that and it stuck a bit but it came off easily when I soaked it in hot water and washing up liquid)
  4. Bake in the oven for 30 minutes

Enjoy 🙂

Before I put mine in the oven I topped it with the rest of the banana and then put peanut butter on top once it had baked.

Spicy tomato and chickpeas and potato cakes

Hello,

I wanted to share with you two recipes today. The first one is spicy chickpeas and spinach and the second one is potato cakes. Today was my first time making potato cakes and I am in love they are so delicious. I think the spinach and chickpeas is also quite a standard recipe that I see in cookery books and on the internet. All with only slight variations. You don’t have to eat these too thinks together but I normally eat my chickpeas with rice so I fancied a little change today. You could also have the potato cakes with baked beans or any other saucy thing you would like. So, I shall share the recipe for both.

Spicy tomato and chickpeas with spinach and potato cakes

Spicy tomatoes and chickpeas:

Ingredients:

  • Olive oil for frying
  • 1 onion, diced
  • 2 gloves of garlic, crushed
  • Small piece of fresh root ginger, peeled and finely grated
  • 2 red chillis, chopped as small as you can
  • 1/2tsp turmeric
  • 3/4tsp garam masala
  • 1tsp ground cumin
  • 1 tin chopped tomatoes
  • 2tsp tomato puree
  • 400g chickpeas
  • 200g packed baby spinach leaves

What to do:

  1. Heat the oil in a saucepan and cook the onion until softened. Stir in the garlic, ginger and chillis and cook for five more minutes
  2. Add the spices and stir over a low heat for a few seconds then add the tomatoes and tomato puree and simmer for five minutes
  3. Add the chickpeas, simmer for ten minutes. Lastly add in the spinach and cook for a few minutes until wilted

Potato cakes:

Ingredients:

  • 2 large diced potatoes
  • 1/2 cup grated cheddar cheese
  • 1tsp dried chives
  • 2 chopped spring onions
  • 1/2 beaten egg
  • Olive oil to fry

What to do:

  1. Put the potatoes in boiling water and simmer for ten minutes. Drain then mash lightly with a fork
  2. Add the cheese, chives and spring onions and half an egg and combine so everything has stuck together. Be careful not to use too much egg otherwise it will be too crumbly for cooking
  3. Make 4 potato cakes and then heat your oil in a frying pan. Fry on each side for 4-5 minutes until browned

Enjoy 🙂

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