Hello everyone, I haven’t posted a recipe or anything for quite a long time. I asked a few people on Instagram if they would like me to start posting recipes again and I got such positive feedback that people would love to see recipes. I dip in and out of blogging ever such a lot but I really enjoy it. I enjoy having the space to share anything my heart desires. So, as with all of my other recipes I have shared I thought I would post them on this blog. This particular one I am going to share today was actually requested and I didn’t really know what you would want me to share so I thought I would kick off with this one.
Ingredients: 400g can chopped tomatoes 1 can of butterbeans in water, drained and rinsed 1 small onion, diced 1 carrot, diced 1 red pepper, chopped 1 courgette, chopped 1tsp each of cumin, coriander and garam masala
What to do: 1. Heat a little oil in a saucepan and add in the onion, carrot, pepper and courgette and cook for five minutes 2. Add the butterbeans, chopped tomatoes, cumin, coriander and garam masala and simmer for 15 minutes. You may need to simmer for longer depending on how crunchy or soft you like your vegetables to be 3. Serve with whatever you would like and most importantly enjoy! 🙂
Today I wanted to talk to you all about challenging yourself in a HEALTHY way. I think that anyone with any type of mental illness has fallen victim to punishing themselves and setting themselves too high a goals which they cannot achieve. I know personally my goals were ridiculous, to be friends with everyone and to be happy and bubbly all of the time. So in the end I was exhausted and wearing myself out and my anorexia got stronger and stronger until I felt oh this is great, I am losing weight finally something I can be good at. Of course in time I found myself as unhappy as ever and so I entered recovery and have been trying to find new ways of challenging myself that do not include unachievable goals or physically and mentally harming myself.
This next week marks a very important week for me in my recovery because my parents left for France yesterday evening for 10 days. I got ever so anxious yesterday and when I get anxious I scream because I don’t let the thoughts come in. So I am just sat with an anxious feeling and I have no idea why. But yesterday was one of the easier times where I could link my anxiety to a big event and sometimes I can’t do that. So, after I had calmed down a little bit I thought to myself… This is a REALLY BIG positive step. I am challenging myself from being away from my mum so I have to take care and responsibility of my own recovery. This is a huge positive and healthy challenge because I am not going to be punishing myself and I have set myself an achievable goal and if I don’t quite manage then no harm is actually done. I am still going to feel accomplished because being away from my parents is already half of the challenged ticked already.
So I wanted to share with you a few other little challenges that I have/want to achieve. I do lots of planning of these kinds of challenges and it makes me feel SO GOOD once I have finished them. Like I didn’t know I could have such a confidence boost just by doing my favourite hobby regularly or doing homework tasks set by my therapist. You will see these goals are not entirely food related but some are because I like to have a mixture. The one thing they all have in common is health and well being related. Here are my goals:
To make my friendship bracelets whenever I have a few spare minutes in the day
To give in my job application forms (already done this one!)
To go horse riding as regularly as possible. I love horse riding but sometimes it’s a lot of effort to make myself go. Just because my negative voices are very loud and recently I seem to have lost interest in nearly all of my hobbies. But horse riding is something that actually makes me feel good about and it is a challenge to make myself go so that is why it is on here
To put effort into my mindfulness practice and to do it at least three times a week
To go back to college in September (That’s a huge one and I have knots in my stomach just thinking about it!)
To make the effort to have lunch out with any family member each week. This is an important one because I have found that I absolutely love having lunch with my mum. I can talk to her about therapy and any worries I might have and because it is at a time and day that we have planned to have lunch then I can plan what to say and I find that very useful because if we didn’t do that then there wouldn’t be another time that I feel more comfortable talking to her. Because at my house it is busy busy busy!
To make sure I keep writing to my pen pals
To make sure I look after myself. Wash my face, put a bit of make up on, use my perfume, use my favourite shower gel and body lotion. Hand cream and foot cream. When I was deep into my illness I wouldn’t do any of this. My hands and lips were completely cracked and bleeding because I refused to look after myself. Now I wake up feeling like I want to get out of bed and have a nice day just because it feels a bit nicer being in my skin.
To walk my dogs everyday
So those are all of my goals and challenges to make me feel like I have a purpose to my life and I am not just floating around doing nothing. I have ambitions and I want a proper life and hopefully my goals will help me towards that. What are your personal challenges/goals? I would love to hear them.
I have been so busy recently it appears and that makes me anxious because my energy levels are depleting fast. I wake up in the morning fresh as a daisy and then by 11:00 I am flagging and then by two I can’t move anymore. This is a problem that needs to be solved especially if I want to have a life for myself which I very much do want that more than anything! But apart from the tiredness everyday I feel quite chirpy today. So I wanted to share with you a recipe again! This is my tomato and vegetable pasta sauce and its so delicious I love it.
1tsp olive oil
1 large onion
2 celery sticks, chopped
2 carrots, chopped
2 peppers any colour, deseeded and chopped
2x400g cans chopped tomatoes
1tbsp balsamic vinegar
What to do:
Heat the oil in a saucepan and gently cook the onion, celery and carrots for around ten minutes. Add the peppers and cook for ten minutes more.Tip in the tomatoes and balsamic vinegar. Simmer for around 30-40 minutes.#
Once the sauce is cooked blitz with a hand held blender. You could leave it chunky but I think it tastes nicer smooth and I prefer that texture.
I got four portions out of this so it’s perfect to shove in the freezer so you have it to hand when you don’t feel like cooking.
Firstly, I want to apologise because I know I said I would post this recipe on Friday but that never ended up happening because silly me forgot I had an appointment in the afternoon and then by the time I knew it the whole day had ran away with me. I am also sorry because if you follow my Instagram then I have been posting these meals and not posting the recipes until ages afterwards so it is a little confusing and I am still getting used to the whole blogging and instagram at the same time. I guess one could say I am no multi-tasker! Anyway, I want to share with you today this vegetable and bean chilli. I have SO MANY chilli recipes but I really enjoyed this one because it felt so fresh tasting and not so heavy.
Bean chilli and chips
Bean chilli and rice
1tbsp olive oil
1 garlic clove, finely chopped
1 thumb sized piece of ginger, finely chopped
1 large onion, chopped
2 courgettes, diced
1 red pepper,deseeded and chopped
1 yellow pepper, dese1eded and chopped
1 tbsp chilli powder
100g red lentils, washed and drained
1tbsp tomato puree
2x 400g cans chopped tomatoes
195g sweetcorn, drained
420g can butter beans, drained
400g kidney beans in water, drained
What to do:
1. Heat the oil in a large pan. Cook the garlic, ginger, onion, courgettes and peppers for about five minutes until starting to soften. Add the chilli powder and cook for 1 minute more.
2. Stir in the lentils, tomato puree, tomatoes and 250ml water. Bring to the boil and cook for 15-20 minutes.
3. Add the sweetcorn and beans and cook for a further 10 minutes. (I made seven portions)
I shall be posting a recipe later on today but first I wanted to do a little post about my lunch that I had yesterday. Me and my mum love going out for lunch so we decided to make it a regular occurrence and we usually go once a week depending on how busy we both are. It’s lovely to spend some time with my mum and also I sometimes meet her before/after therapy so it puts me in a good mood. We have two favourite cafes now but we want to find new places to go because it’s always nice to go somewhere different!
The place I went to yesterday was actually a shop and they have a cafe on the top floor. I think lots of places do that now actually and I like going there because then I can look at all of the kitchen/craft stuff when I am finished 😉 Yesterday I felt like a toasted sandwich and I hadn’t actually seen them do toasted sandwiches before but maybe that is because I wasn’t looking? I chose a cheese and tomato toastie and it was delish.
And then for pudding we both got a cake and I got the coffee and walnut cake which is one of my favourite ever flavours. I have also had the chocolate brownie there before as well. I think I like my chocolate things 😉 I shall have to try the chocolate cake next time I go. I have always been eyeing it up but I think that saying you eat with your eyes is true. Because once my dad bought a cake slice and I just wouldn’t have chosen to eat it because it looked just a bit boring but I had it and it was actually very tasty. I don’t know I think that I do usually make such a fuss if my food doesn’t look tasty I think that is definitely something I need to work on! But I don’t think it is a specific eating disorder thing. I think it is a me being silly thing! Ramble over… Here was my cake.
I did enjoy it but it was very very dense. It wasn’t light and fluffy and my mum said that my homemade cakes are 1000x better. I think a bake session is in order this weekend 😉 Something different will be happening next week. Something different and scary. On Tuesday I am going out for lunch but I am not going with my mum, I am going with my dad. Me and my dad have a difficult relationship and my illness has made it worse. The other day I was just talking with my dad and suddenly I asked him out for lunch. I am not one to be so forward but I did it and I am actually very proud. Me and my dad don’t really do anything together and if we do then my mum is always there. So I hope that this will be a good time to bond and also it will be out of the house and at my favourite cafe so I think (I hope) that I will feel relaxed because most times I don’t feel relaxed at home and that’s when the conflict starts.
I think I am making important steps and I am quite proud of myself which one day I won’t be ashamed of saying! Eating lunch out is getting a little bit easier each week and I think it just proves that if you try then you will succeed. I am aware that most people might not go out for lunch once a week but I think for me it is helping challenging myself and it helps putting an hour aside each week so me and my mum can have a good chat in a calm and relaxed environment which unfortunately is not home at the moment but it will be. Just take each day as it comes.
I wanted to share with you one of the most simplest recipes ever. It is my homemade hummus and I have to warn you that it doesn’t taste like shop bought hummus BUT it’s still yummy and I always like making things for several reasons the first being just because it is a big hobby of mine and it’s much more satisfying making your own meal than whipping out something that is premade!
1 tin chickpeas, drained
1 tbsp lemon juice
1 garlic clove, chopped
2 tbsp olive oil
What to do:
Place all ingredients in a food processer or you can use a hand blender or just mash by hand. Blend until it has made a smooth puree and then tadah you are done!
Don’t freak out about the oil because olive oil is SO good for you. I am actually going to list all of the good things about fats because they are essential in the diet and people seem to be afraid of fats when they shouldn’t be because we need ALL nutrients to make up a BALANCED diet.
Why fats are so good for you and why you need them in your diet:
Carbohydrates are the main source of energy in the body but when the body has ran out it will turn to the fat stores to find energy
Fats help maintain body temperature
They protect and cushion your organs and bodies tissue
Used to build new cells
Vitamins A, D, E and K are fat soluable vitamins which means without fat they cannot function properly
Essential for brain development and nerve function
They keep your hair, skin and nails beautiful and shiny, make sure your hair doesn’t fall out and isn’t all brittle and straw like. Protein helps with this as well
Another little thing I wanted to add to this post is that I have a bit of an announcement I guess urm I don’t know what you would call it. I have been thinking for a long while and I want to make a series of blog posts to do with anything mental health and anorexia recovery related. I have been in recovery for four years now and I have learnt A LOT over my time so as well as my recipes and my daily posts on this blog which I love doing so much once a week I will be doing posts on things so this week was why fats are good for you and I will also be doing things like my personal views on stopping counting calories, how to deal with friends/family who are on a diet, extreme hunger in recovery and so on. I want to be able to share my experiences with people and to help them. I would love it if you commented to say if you think this is a good idea and also if you have suggestions of posts I could do then I would love that so much. I have decided to call this series “the mental health project” because I think that’s a good all round general name for the sorts of topics I will be talking about.
Today I have decided to share with you a recipe because on my Instagram I always have quite a few people saying they would love to know the recipes for the things that I cook and bake. So I thought I would start off with a pretty basic recipe. Pretty much all of the ingredients are ones that you would already have in your house so it’s always good to be able to make something and not having to rush and and buy something last minute and also this recipe is so quick and that’s exactly what you need sometimes. I do love cooking but I don’t like to be in the kitchen for hours after a long, busy day!
1 onion, diced
1tsp olive oil
1/2tsp ground cinnamon
1tsp ground cumin
300g mushrooms, quartered
400g can chopped tomatoes
400g can chickpeas, rinsed and drained
1tsp clear honey OR 1tsp agave nectar
Fry the onion in the oil for 6 minutes until softened. Add the cinnamon and cumin and cook for one minute, stirring. Add the mushrooms and cook for 2 minutes then stir in the tomatoes, chickpeas and honey/agave. Simmer for 7-8 minutes.
To make the couscous I use 50g per person and 2-3 depending on how big they are dried apricots per person. Chop up the apricots into really small pieces and then put in a bowl along with the couscous. Pour over boiling water from the kettle until it has just covered the couscous and then cover with a plate and leave for five minutes. When the couscous is cooked fluff up the grains and serve with the mushrooms.