Hello everyone, I haven’t posted a recipe or anything for quite a long time. I asked a few people on Instagram if they would like me to start posting recipes again and I got such positive feedback that people would love to see recipes. I dip in and out of blogging ever such a lot but I really enjoy it. I enjoy having the space to share anything my heart desires. So, as with all of my other recipes I have shared I thought I would post them on this blog. This particular one I am going to share today was actually requested and I didn’t really know what you would want me to share so I thought I would kick off with this one.
Ingredients: 400g can chopped tomatoes 1 can of butterbeans in water, drained and rinsed 1 small onion, diced 1 carrot, diced 1 red pepper, chopped 1 courgette, chopped 1tsp each of cumin, coriander and garam masala
What to do: 1. Heat a little oil in a saucepan and add in the onion, carrot, pepper and courgette and cook for five minutes 2. Add the butterbeans, chopped tomatoes, cumin, coriander and garam masala and simmer for 15 minutes. You may need to simmer for longer depending on how crunchy or soft you like your vegetables to be 3. Serve with whatever you would like and most importantly enjoy! 🙂
I promised yesterday on instagram that I would post this delicious recipe of tomato baked eggs. I made this for the very first time on Wednesday and it was so delicious and extremely easy. I think anyone could make it because it is that easy. Here is what it looks like and what to do:
Tomato baked eggs
1 large potato washed and diced
oil to fry
1 crushed garlic clove
1/4 red pepper
1tsp dried chives
1/2 of a 400g can chopped tomatoes
9 green olives
What to do:
Add the potato to a pan of boiling water and simmer for 10 minutes
While the potato is boiling, heat the oil in a frying pan. Once heated add the garlic and pepper and cook for three minutes
Add the chives paprika, chopped tomatoes and olives to the pan and cook for 3 minutes
When the potato is done drain it then mix in well with the tomato sauce
grease a small/medium pan with oil/spray/spread and then add in the tomato and potato mixture
Make two dips in the mixture and then crack in the eggs into each one
Bake for 15 minutes with an oven temperature of 180 fan oven or 200 normal
Some of you might know that I absolutely love baking. It is one of my favourite things to do but unfortunately anorexia has taken it away from me as my mum was getting a bit frustrated when I used to bake all of the time but I wouldn’t eat any myself. I remember when I was in hospital, every Friday was baking day and I would make chocolate brownies and biscuits etc and I would give them to my family and all of the other patients and staff. It was like no one expected me to eat any of what I had created. None of the staff said anything so I just kept baking and giving it all away. But then when I came home I WANT to eat my baked goods so I stopped baking from fear of having to eat it because I have made a pact with myself if I bake then I MUST eat it. And then at the weekend I hadn’t baked in months so I thought it was the perfect opportunity to bake something and eat it. I made these apricot and walnut bars from Mary Berry and they are so delicious. They felt wasier for me because they have oats and wholemeal flour and walnuts in but they still have their fair share of ingredients which my eating disorder would make me cry and run from. So I thought I would share this recipe with you. And of course it is Mary Berry so it has GOT to be good right? 😉
Apricot and walnut sandwich bars
50g rolled oats
50g light muscovado sugar
40g chopped walnuts
200g wholemeal self raising flour OR plain wholemeal flour with 2tsp baking powder
175g butter, melted
175g dried apricots, chopped into small pieces
2tbsp caster sugar
grated rind of 1 lemon
What to do:
Pre heat your oven to 130 degrees (fan) or 150 degrees and then grease and line a 18cm square tin with baking parchment. Begin by making the apricot filling. Place the apricots, water, sugar and lemon rind into a small saucepan. cover and simmer gently until all of the liquid has evaporated. Remove from the heat and allow to cool while you prepare the oat mixture.
Mix together the oats, flour, sugar and walnuts in a bowl. Pour in the melted butter and mix well.
Press half of the oat mixture into the tin and press down evenly. Spread the apricot mixture evenly on top and then top with the rest of the oat mixture evenly.
Bake in the oven for around 45 minutes. I got nine squares out of my mixture and when still hot cut gently through the mixture to score out nine squares and then leave to go completely cold before completely cutting the bars and lifting them out of the tin.
Today I wanted to talk to you all about challenging yourself in a HEALTHY way. I think that anyone with any type of mental illness has fallen victim to punishing themselves and setting themselves too high a goals which they cannot achieve. I know personally my goals were ridiculous, to be friends with everyone and to be happy and bubbly all of the time. So in the end I was exhausted and wearing myself out and my anorexia got stronger and stronger until I felt oh this is great, I am losing weight finally something I can be good at. Of course in time I found myself as unhappy as ever and so I entered recovery and have been trying to find new ways of challenging myself that do not include unachievable goals or physically and mentally harming myself.
This next week marks a very important week for me in my recovery because my parents left for France yesterday evening for 10 days. I got ever so anxious yesterday and when I get anxious I scream because I don’t let the thoughts come in. So I am just sat with an anxious feeling and I have no idea why. But yesterday was one of the easier times where I could link my anxiety to a big event and sometimes I can’t do that. So, after I had calmed down a little bit I thought to myself… This is a REALLY BIG positive step. I am challenging myself from being away from my mum so I have to take care and responsibility of my own recovery. This is a huge positive and healthy challenge because I am not going to be punishing myself and I have set myself an achievable goal and if I don’t quite manage then no harm is actually done. I am still going to feel accomplished because being away from my parents is already half of the challenged ticked already.
So I wanted to share with you a few other little challenges that I have/want to achieve. I do lots of planning of these kinds of challenges and it makes me feel SO GOOD once I have finished them. Like I didn’t know I could have such a confidence boost just by doing my favourite hobby regularly or doing homework tasks set by my therapist. You will see these goals are not entirely food related but some are because I like to have a mixture. The one thing they all have in common is health and well being related. Here are my goals:
To make my friendship bracelets whenever I have a few spare minutes in the day
To give in my job application forms (already done this one!)
To go horse riding as regularly as possible. I love horse riding but sometimes it’s a lot of effort to make myself go. Just because my negative voices are very loud and recently I seem to have lost interest in nearly all of my hobbies. But horse riding is something that actually makes me feel good about and it is a challenge to make myself go so that is why it is on here
To put effort into my mindfulness practice and to do it at least three times a week
To go back to college in September (That’s a huge one and I have knots in my stomach just thinking about it!)
To make the effort to have lunch out with any family member each week. This is an important one because I have found that I absolutely love having lunch with my mum. I can talk to her about therapy and any worries I might have and because it is at a time and day that we have planned to have lunch then I can plan what to say and I find that very useful because if we didn’t do that then there wouldn’t be another time that I feel more comfortable talking to her. Because at my house it is busy busy busy!
To make sure I keep writing to my pen pals
To make sure I look after myself. Wash my face, put a bit of make up on, use my perfume, use my favourite shower gel and body lotion. Hand cream and foot cream. When I was deep into my illness I wouldn’t do any of this. My hands and lips were completely cracked and bleeding because I refused to look after myself. Now I wake up feeling like I want to get out of bed and have a nice day just because it feels a bit nicer being in my skin.
To walk my dogs everyday
So those are all of my goals and challenges to make me feel like I have a purpose to my life and I am not just floating around doing nothing. I have ambitions and I want a proper life and hopefully my goals will help me towards that. What are your personal challenges/goals? I would love to hear them.
I have been so busy recently it appears and that makes me anxious because my energy levels are depleting fast. I wake up in the morning fresh as a daisy and then by 11:00 I am flagging and then by two I can’t move anymore. This is a problem that needs to be solved especially if I want to have a life for myself which I very much do want that more than anything! But apart from the tiredness everyday I feel quite chirpy today. So I wanted to share with you a recipe again! This is my tomato and vegetable pasta sauce and its so delicious I love it.
1tsp olive oil
1 large onion
2 celery sticks, chopped
2 carrots, chopped
2 peppers any colour, deseeded and chopped
2x400g cans chopped tomatoes
1tbsp balsamic vinegar
What to do:
Heat the oil in a saucepan and gently cook the onion, celery and carrots for around ten minutes. Add the peppers and cook for ten minutes more.Tip in the tomatoes and balsamic vinegar. Simmer for around 30-40 minutes.#
Once the sauce is cooked blitz with a hand held blender. You could leave it chunky but I think it tastes nicer smooth and I prefer that texture.
I got four portions out of this so it’s perfect to shove in the freezer so you have it to hand when you don’t feel like cooking.
Firstly, I want to apologise because I know I said I would post this recipe on Friday but that never ended up happening because silly me forgot I had an appointment in the afternoon and then by the time I knew it the whole day had ran away with me. I am also sorry because if you follow my Instagram then I have been posting these meals and not posting the recipes until ages afterwards so it is a little confusing and I am still getting used to the whole blogging and instagram at the same time. I guess one could say I am no multi-tasker! Anyway, I want to share with you today this vegetable and bean chilli. I have SO MANY chilli recipes but I really enjoyed this one because it felt so fresh tasting and not so heavy.
Bean chilli and chips
Bean chilli and rice
1tbsp olive oil
1 garlic clove, finely chopped
1 thumb sized piece of ginger, finely chopped
1 large onion, chopped
2 courgettes, diced
1 red pepper,deseeded and chopped
1 yellow pepper, dese1eded and chopped
1 tbsp chilli powder
100g red lentils, washed and drained
1tbsp tomato puree
2x 400g cans chopped tomatoes
195g sweetcorn, drained
420g can butter beans, drained
400g kidney beans in water, drained
What to do:
1. Heat the oil in a large pan. Cook the garlic, ginger, onion, courgettes and peppers for about five minutes until starting to soften. Add the chilli powder and cook for 1 minute more.
2. Stir in the lentils, tomato puree, tomatoes and 250ml water. Bring to the boil and cook for 15-20 minutes.
3. Add the sweetcorn and beans and cook for a further 10 minutes. (I made seven portions)